Saturn and Neptune have come together this last week or so by the barest of margins, in time and space. As expected, it has caused insecurity, confusion, self-doubt, fear and guilt. But I underestimated just how overwhelmingly negative this alignment would be. I have hardly slept this last week, and when I do, it is a continuous nightmare.

I am naturally pessimistic because of Mercury-Venus opposite Saturn in my chart. I often try to overcompensate so I don’t sound too negative. Jupiter trine Ascendant helps me look for the best in everything and everyone.

I thought the Magic Triangle would make Saturn materialize the more spiritual and idealistic nature of Neptune. It might be doing so in subtle ways, but all I see at the moment is disappointment, fear, dread and hopelessness.

In my nightmares, I have been chased, persecuted, punished and tortured for just and unjust reasons. More nightmares, though, have been of a dystopian future full of overcrowding, starvation, desperation, terror, war and death. When I wake, I look at the news and realize this is already the reality for many. 

This retrograde Saturn-Neptune conjunction between fixed stars Scheat and Deneb Kaitos has given evil the ascendancy. But it will not last, and the law of thermodynamics applies to karma as well. For every action, there is an equal but opposite reaction.

I still believe the Magic Triangle will bring us amazing breakthroughs, cures, and solutions. What I hope most for is that it makes us more humane, compassionate and accepting of others.